Bill Clinton's "My Life"

Just happened to log back into my blog and realized that the last time (well, the only time) I wrote something on it was on Oct 17th..I started this out as a weekly blog and named it Saturday Night musings with the perfect vision of me sitting down every Saturday night laying out my visionary musings for the world .. Ok, I admit that it did not work out as planned and it is not even a Saturday. Any way I decided to write something here and actually spent nearly an hour to come up with a perfectly non consequential topic which will not annoy anyone who knows me. Every writer out their who risks their good name to write freely about topics of consequence to satisfy people's thirst for knowledge and information, my hats off to you.. I just realized how hard a choice it is and I am just not there yet.

Now getting back on topic, I had been reading mr.Clinton's Auto Biography "My Life" - quite a large volume, but I have to admit one thing...whether you are a democrat or republican, Lewinski supporter or a self proclaimed protector of global chastity (like Newt Gingrich..ha ha that is another grand story of hypocrisy), what ever you are " you gotta love this guy, there is no other way." It is amazing the observations he make of little incidents some as far back as his childhood or teen years. And how those experiences defined his policy choices as President. Quite a rich mind. I know a lot of people now define Clinton simply by the Lewinski affair, but it is like defining the Everest by the trash people left around while scaling it. All I can say about it is that if we rule out good people for petty issues of this sort, what we end up with are bad people who are just good at hiding their flaws.

The only complaint I have about the book is that it is too huge, I think he wanted to make sure to include everyone who mattered to him and did not want to leave out anybody and use the opportunity to support his wife's presidential bid by detailing everything that they did for the country. I had been skipping sections but overall a good read and an honest portrayel of his life without any glossing over.

Dreamer

I am a tough juggler or so I think. I often find myself juggling many activities like get a doctor's appt while waiting for my PC to boot up, read news or check kids home work while shaping up on my excercise ball or even plan my day or listen to music or news or pray while driving to work etc. I think I will find my life quite boring if I don't have to juggle many activities at the same time.

I didn't become a juggler by choice though, I am juggler by necessity first and habit second. I am a working mother with 2 high energy kids. I don't want my kids to miss out on any thing because I am busy. I believe the most important of all my duties at this time in my life is making sure my kids turn out okay. So I decided to go with a laser like focus on my momma duties and shape up the rest of my life around it.

Is this good enough, I don't know, I often struggle with that thought. I haven't made any significant contributions to the world except for a little bit of voluntary work here and there. I feel like I am being a thankless greedy consumer of the fruits of other people's sweat without adding anything significant to it. Ofcourse I write computer programs for a living and these programs are being used by people during their day today life, still it doesn't sound as cool as building an artificial heart or installing desert mirrors to help cool earth. I ought to be doing more to pay my dues to my fellow humans... but how?

Maybe someday I will manage to do something more significant..maybe I am going to get that advanced degree in international policy and become part of a think tank that provides policy advice to world leaders. Or maybe I am going to be at the UN or WTO or who knows what..or maybe, just maybe this blog is going to inspire someone somewhere with more talent and drive to be unlike me...